OH NO!!!!

Oh no, what's happening to me?  Why am I not doing what I need to do to be ready for January?  Has my motivation waned?  Have I given up, thinking I'll never be able to do this anyway?  Do I feel lost in my quest for a healthier life?

In answer to my last question first, I know that since being in PA with family for the past 3-1/2 weeks I've eaten all the things that I used to eat on a regular basis, no calorie counting here!  Wow, what a mistake that is, stomach pains most of the time, overly full most of the time, fried and unhealthy foods most of the time.  What am I thinking?!  I still have a week and a half here and I need to make better choices so that I can go home not feeling like this.  There have been a couple references to me being fat during my stay and boy did that hurt.  No one wants to hear that they're FAT!  I think I really need to pray for help now more then ever. Any prayers you can send for me would be appreciated.

As far as the other questions go, I have just stopped walking every morning.  I know I could but I don't.  I always find things that I want or need to do that interfere with these plans, some not important at all, others are necessities.  I have to find out why this is happening, why I'm losing the momentum that had gotten me to where I was before this trip. Maybe vacations are my downfall. Maybe I'm thinking I can make it up when I get back home. Maybe, maybe, maybe...

Now that I'm finally posting again, I discovered last night that my fitbit isn't even working. I've tried different things to get it to work, but haven't had any success so far.  I'll try again today and see if I can get it to work. I know, just another excuse. :-(

Oh well, to tomorrow and beyond (hopefully!  prayers greatly accepted)...